At 38, I was on the brink of divorce and suffocating. I felt numb inside. I had everything I thought I ever wanted (the partner, kids, a home) but still…I felt like a chocolate bunny the day after Easter, innards removed, half-gnawed and forgotten in the darkest, dankest corner of the basement.
I desired a different life. I wanted to feel alive, excited to wake up in the morning and in total control of my happiness. I craved hot sex with my husband, no-more losing my shiznit at my kids and to feel f*cking joy again.
Any of this resonate?
I wanted to blame my misery on hubby – and I tried that route – , but as it turned out…..
I was the problema numero uno (that’s #1 problem in Italian)
I wanted to run. But, I stayed and did the work instead.
I was born the youngest of three kids and the only girl. I pushed hard to be the fastest, the strongest, the whatever-est of whatever thing I was striving for. Gold stars, blue ribbons, invitations to your guys-only ski weekends. Sign me up. I wanted it all.
I took my strong masculine energy into my life and my marriage.
And then my marriage was ending.
I had deeply buried parts of myself. My feminine energy.
When I dove into my raw, instinctual feminine qualities, I recognized just how powerful I was.
And boom. I uncovered my sense of self and unearthed a juicy and delicious life. (warning: messy parts still abound, but it’s 79% tropicana orange)
When I began to do this work, there was a revolution in my heart.
I began to attract the things I wanted in my life. I was less overwhelmed. I healed my relationship with my husband and my kids.
“Natalie reminds us that all we have to do is pause and breathe, right now, to feel the power already within us. She inspires us to move through the stuck places, and resist the urge to do it alone. With Tribe of Wolves, she calls us to step into the wild, wonderful women that we already are... and creates a supported space for who we're always becoming. “
My mission is to create a lasting ripple effect of love, light and badassery that this mad world needs so greatly right now.
That is what I want. For us. And for every living thing.